Facing more treatments...

Last week Scott had a MRI that showed numerous tumors have shrunk, were they could actually count up to twelve still in the brain. It also revealed  one tumor has grown from 9.3 mm to 12.5 mm, this tumor is in a highly sensitive area where they are planning to treat with Cyber Knife.  He will also undergo more chemotherapy starting Tuesday, September 14th, much of this is wearing on Scott as he is drained of energy but he continues to say "He will do what is necessary to be here for his wife and children." 

Scott has show such strength as we have witnessed the affects of chemo!  The kids call him there "Hero", I wonder how he does it!  So often after a treatment he feels flu like symptoms and will be "out of it for days!" What is remarkable is as soon as he can he feels a little strength he is up to tackle some task, like mowing the lawn or cleaning and organizing a room or taking the kids to one of there events, only to face with in a day or two more chemo.   

He doesn't think of himself, he is always wondering what he can do to help our life be better. He fights to surrender so that we don't have such a burden if he were to pass.  Scott has stated how much he loves our family and that he doesn't want us to have to suffer.   He hates the fact that we are taking care of him,  I suppose this is also deep with in a man that instinct to provide for his family. 

I have found much more peace in all of this where last year I felt as if I was falling apart and what scarred me most was how would I handle it if I were to lose my husband?   I do in some sense feel as if are dreams are lost or should I say the dreams we have, but in some ways we now have bigger dreams and that is for a miracle.  We can never give up that hope! 

We are surrounded by very loving family & friends with the same hope that we have and we appreciate all the love that we have been shown by others, like taking our children out, or a dinner here or there, or words of comfort, the list goes on and on.  We appreciate some of the agencies that have paid for our utilities to remain on  and family members who have paid for our van to be fixed when we had no transportation.

This past August "Dream Foundation" raised enough money for our family to get to the 2010 Family Fest at Catholic Familyland, where one of their beneficiaries had already paid for our cabin.  It would have been horrible to miss out.  Two weeks before we had no idea how we would go, with a car broken down and no way to pay for the gas then suddenly everything worked out and we were able to go and enjoy the week as a family.  Our granddaughter Lorelei was able to go with us too, which made the week even better.


Again thank you everyone for your loving support!

Carrie

Home - Faith Hope & Love Cancer Benefit

Just wanted to share the website our oldest daughter, Katie has created for Scott & our family.
She put together a benefit last year in September that helped us pay for medicine, medical bills & our household bills so that
I could focus on caring for Scott and our four children.

Home - Faith Hope & Love Cancer Benefit

With great appreciation for the love, concern and prayers that we have received.

Carrie